One Day

he hated when my belt pushed against him in the womb 
and then one day he was grown

he screamed so loud when he was born he went to the NICU
and then one day he was grown

he refused bottles at daycare because he wanted me to nurse
and then one day he was grown

he learned to walk and rawr
in the same week
and then one day he was grown

he scrapped both knees
called his bandaids stickers
and then one day he was grown

he fell asleep after five minutes in the car but wouldn’t sleep in his crib
and then one day he was grown

he was obsessed with dinosaurs and Paw Patrol
and then one day he was grown

he was so brave on his first day of school while I bawled
and then one day he was grown

he is thirsty for knowledge when it’s something he loves
and then one day he’ll be grown

he is so wild and exhausting and full of life
and then one day he’ll be grown

he still needs me to sit with him at night when he gets scared
and then one day he’ll be grown

he still says he loves me every once in a blue moon
and then one day he’ll be grown.




Memories

the things i remember 
are not the ones you would think
the dark purple glow of the stairs
leading to an underground comedy club
low lighting and fallen ceiling in a crowded room
chairs and tables that hadn’t been changed since the 80s
crowding around a tiny cafe table with you, our friend and his flavor of the month
i don’t remember the act
you tell me it was bill burr
i don’t even remember the jokes
but I remember feeling joy
absolute joy
and laughter
i remember walking to the metro
being stopped buy a movie set
60s era cars racing through our eye line
like we’d traveled through time
i remember walking through the streets of D.C
lit up by democracy and capitalism but mostly i remember
taking your hand
and living for the moment