At Odds

It’s terrifying really,

Knowing that what you want to do

And what you need to do are at odds.

Realizing that what you think you are called to do isn’t really what your passion might be.

Sometimes you just have to find the job that lets you do what you love.

Sometimes it’s the same thing, sometimes it’s not.

Sometimes you struggle with who you really are; outside of a wife

a mother

or a daughter.

I, myself, am a writer; despite my best efforts to prove to myself otherwise.

Turns Out

Turns out
Knowing what you want to do for your life at 18 isn’t all that normal.

Turns out
Going to school and getting a job and then changing your mind ten years into it, happens.

Turns out
That you don’t have to have your life figured out when you graduate.

Turns out
You can say “screw it” at 35 and decide to start writing.

Turns out
It’s just as scary and just as hard but twice as fulfilling.

Turns out
It’s never too late to pursue your dreams.

-b.e.